Strangely enough, this morning around 9:00AM, I was missing my son that I lost 39 years ago. I took out my little picture album of him. The pictures were taken of him, during his eight months, that he lived on this earth.
Within that little album, was also a thank you note I had written to people at my work when I lost my other son, at the age of 24.
I found letters that I received, after his death, from my friend who was dying of cancer, comforting me about the loss of my son. I am still amazed by her words, wondering how I could deal with my son's death, knowing she had such a short time to live, herself. She lost her battle with cancer, just five months after my son died.
Later, I happened to say to my husband, remember when we were kids, we didn't have to worry about such things as school shootings. There is just something wrong, that needs to be looked at, as to why these things are happening so frequently.
Of course, when I turned on the TV, today, I discovered that it had happened again. Then eventually we were told that 20 of the victims had been very young children. That means that those parents are mourning their little children, tonight.
Each of us are so terribly sad for these families, and their loss. I hate that I know how shocking it is to lose a child, unexpectedly, and how you never forget that deep sadness. You learn to live with that loss, even though in the beginning, you think it unreal, and that you cannot possibly go on, without that child in your life.
My heart breaks for each family that lost a child, today. You haven't even begun to realize the journey it will take to even think of being happy again. Your child will live in your heart and your memory, forever.
Any parent is horrified by the thought of losing a child. That is why we all feel so sad, to think, that so many parents are having to experience that, tonight. Our children that went before us, were so precious, and such blessing to have had. We were so special to have had the prviledge of having them.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all, tonight!